Thankful? Yes, but...

I made it to a few moments ago until my emotions about this day came through. I'm thankful for all that I do have. I am thankful for my health. I am thankful for my wonderful husband. I am especially thank for my little girl. 

But. 

I am still hurting. I am hurting on this day of days for what I no longer have. I am hurting for my three consecutive years pregnant on this holiday with only one child to show for it. I am hurting that I am not (still or again) pregnant this holiday as well (that I know of). I am hurting that I can't do more for all of those babies out there who do not have on this day. 

Why can't I have arms as full as the love I have in my heart for all of those babies out there in this world and those no longer in it?

One thing I do know, we are extremely thankful for this little girl.