I'm not strong.
Well, maybe I should rephrase that. I'm not strong enough.
All of this pertains to my last [real] post.
More announcements. Yes, more joy, but also more heartache for me. Why did this have to go wrong for us? Why again?
I feel left out. This is something I want more than anyone can imagine, yet it's something that I can't easily obtain. Especially not something that the majority of my friends have now obtained without issue. But you know what? I wouldn't wish these internal struggles on my worst enemy, let alone a friend.
I've been lapped. Hopefully, I'll catch up soon, but I've been without much hope recently. Really, why should I expect things to go well for us (and easy. My pregnancy with Selah wasn't easy.)? They haven't so far.
But, like I said, I'm not strong enough to handle another announcement by myself, even if I know about it ahead of time.